Loneliness

It’s so lonely being alone. Morever, knowing that there is no one waiting for me at home. Maybe, if only, I hadn’t been stupid. But regrets always comes last. Besides regrets wont be able to help me at this moment of my life. I just have to find myself again

I’ve totally gotten used to her presence that I’ve identified myself with her. Now that she is gone, it is no wonder that I am lost; I just need to find myself again. I am making it sounds so simple yet it hurts. It still really does hurts. Yet no tears would come out for I am pretending to be strong. I’m pretending to be tough. I’ve only got me to console myself. I’ve only got myself to blame.

As always, It is not the breaking up that is the most painful part. Instead, it is the trying to live again that hurts most. Knowing that everything is over and that I am really all alone is not only painful but also scary.

Where she is now, I don’t know. She does not visit the site anymore and she had changed her number. It wasn’t just a break-up, it was a goodbye.

I miss her… but it is too late