Friends

I could never be thankful enough for friends. Friends like Gang and Oset are simply irreplaceable. They would rather bite their tongue and die than every thought of betraying me. They had proves so a countless number of times. But I’m much thankful to these two for cushioning my fall. I owe these two a lot. They helped me keep my sanity through all these times and more importantly they are the reason why I still keep my faith and trust in humanity.

These two know me so much better than I do know myself. They are my satellites that keep a third person view of me and tell me when I am being stupid. They never fail to give me an honest third person’s view of what I am doing and what I am; yet they also give realistic person’s view advices.

Now, I feel much better. Not only because of these two friends but also because I got in contact with Esther. She is doing fine and I am happy for just knowing that simple fact. Though our status still have not changed, at least we are still in good terms with each other.

Another thing that consoled mw is the return of Sakura. She suddenly herself showed up herself when I was in gloom. Now that I think about it, whenever I am down, Sakura usually shows up. Perhaps she possess some sort of super powers that can detect if I am depressed. Sakura is one of those girls that I just can’t understand. Or perhaps I understand her too much and it is just that I don’t believe a girl like her actually exists. Her predictability is just way too perfect that I always end up doubting her motives. She had betrayed me once, many years before but I’ve already forgiven her about it. The only mistake she have done recently was lying to Gang and it was quite a sensitive matter. Since Gang knows that I trust Sakura, Gang immediately believed her. But knowing Gang’s personality, if I told her it was a lie, she would just chuck it out and forget about it.

At least for now,  I feel much better. I’m not as depressed as I was a few days ago. I realize that music easily changes my mood. For that reason, no Josh Groban, Iyaz, or any love songs for now. I’m only listening to Praise and Worship songs, and other religious songs. I’m glad I forgot to delete them a few days ago.

I’m moving on. Though the pain and longing is still there, I have started moving. I have started to find myself. With the help of my friends, I am beginning to rediscover who I was and who I am.